Life seems but a quick succession of busy nothings. ~ Jane Austen

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Perfect and Encouraging

You are so encouraging. I don't know how you stand me, when I find myself so annoying sometimes. I don't know how you're so patient with me when I come complaining to you so often. I am so needy, and you just take it all in stride. I'm beginning to see, more and more, that while you're not perfect, you're perfect for me.

Friday, November 22, 2013

Best Alarm Clock

This morning I was suddenly wide awake. I had remembered in my sleep that I had forgotten to do something that had to be checked by 7:00 this morning. But I looked at my clock and it said 7:40... I had missed the deadline. It wasn't a super important thing, just check some songs for Sunday and figure out if I needed to change any of them, but I still had wanted to make sure... I laid back down, disappointed that I had missed the deadline, disappointed I had forgotten to do it last night. But comforting myself that I am a good pianist. Suddenly, as I was laying there trying to fall back to sleep, I remembered that my clock was still an hour ahead! It was only 6:40! I lay there for a few moments longer, deciding if it was worth leaving my cozy nest. I believe, however, that God woke me up. Thankfully I did not need to change any of the songs, but if I had I would have been super stressed for missing the time given me for changing it. And I am very grateful God woke me up.

Thursday, November 21, 2013

Pressure and Patience

You tell me you're 85% sure
I try so hard to be patient
I don't want you to feel pressured
School is most important right now
I keep saying
But I'm glad you disagree
I want to see you
But I will never tell you 'you have to come home'
If only your university was closer
I just wish we knew if you were able to come home
This weekend will drag
If you're not here
But I will do my best to be patient
To wait to find out
To not pressure you

Busy and Not

I feel like my life is so busy.
But half the reason is 

Thursday, November 14, 2013

The Difference of a Week

It's amazing how different one piano lesson can be to the next.
Last week felt like twice as long as it was.
Yesterday's lesson felt like half as long as it was, and by the time the hour and a half were up we'd only studied one song. 
Hopefully it means good things for practicing this week.

Spider In My Bed

Preparing my bed
Transforming it into a cozy nest
Move the blankets.
A spider.
A big fast spider.
In my bed.
There is no safe place
My safe haven, 
The place I hide from my fears, my nightmares
Has been intruded.

Monday, November 11, 2013

Remembrance Day

My family (minus my sister, who had to work) went down to the cenotaph today to remember and honour our nation's veterans, and those who risk their lives for us every day. Afterwards we pinned our poppies to a wrath dedicated to Canada's war veterans.

Lest we forget.
Thank you.

Sunday, November 10, 2013

Hold My Hand

Hold my hand. 
Make it warm.
You are sweet.
Hold me tight. 
Don't let go.
Another week apart.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

Going Through My Head

The chorus going through my head:

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

Whenever I think of you

Wednesday, November 6, 2013


Grey, cloudy sky
Grey, barren trees
Fallen, rotting leaves
Cold, damp air
Gloomy, sad thoughts

I.O.S. - Information Overload Syndrome

My piano lesson today felt like it was hours, instead of only an hour and a half. I'm not sure why, completely, but I think it was because we covered so much material in that time slot. I think it was also partly because I've been feeling rather down lately, and being reminded of all the ways I'm playing wrong, and all the things I should know and don't, from being taught by a different teacher, is a little overwhelming. It is so hard to remember everything that is normally taught more slowly to beginner pianists. But I know I can do this. I will. And I'll be a better teacher and pianist because of it.

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Missing You

This week is so long
So slow
And I miss you so
The minutes drag by
It is only Tuesday
I want to see you
I want you to hold me close and whisper in my ear that you missed me
I want to hold your hand, and not let go
I miss you

Downton Abbey

The BBC TV series Downton Abbey is positively addicting. I watched five episodes today... So anxious for the next episode to come out, but that won't be until Sunday, I think... argh! There are, I must admit, some storylines that are just getting old. Edith, the Dowager verses Mrs. Crowley. But hopefully they will be improved, if not by the end of this season, during next season.